Hello wlben,
That was very amusing. I think most of us can relate with you from our beginning years.
I hear stories quite often from my students about how they feel so incompetent due to not knowing what to do. But it is a learning process and we all do it if we want to fulfill our dreams.
At least you are progressing, are you not?
You are doing great! Keep it up. (and I do expect to hear a "hey" when you do get that millionaire status
)